Obedience Is Our Job, While the Result of that Obedience, is God's Business

For a couple of weeks now, it has been on my heart more than ever to just go and see what God can do through me in Haiti. I've been reading He Walks Among Us by Rick and Renee Stearns, and this book has encouraged me to just obey. I've had multiple dreams of me serving there and me having an immense joy doing so! My school efforts all seem to be unsuccessful and when I asked God, desperately pleading in prayer, why this was happening, I heard "Because you're still here." 

But I can't quit school now, I've come so far. Or can I? But I'm scared to drop everything and leave. People have huge expectations from me. Moving to another country? I'm not even sure where I'll go. Did I go to school for these past 11 and a half years, simply to learn discipline? Are you done teaching me discipline and now you want me to go and put it into practice? God is that You?

Rest Anna. 

How many times have you done that? Bottled up so many worries and never even bothered to realize that worrying is sin? He commands us not to worry about anything, but instead pray about everything. (Philippians 4:6-7). Whether you're in the same boat as me and are being convicted of a huge thing, or something smaller, it's all significant and through it all we need to keep in mind that it's our job to obey, not to be in charge of the results of that obedience. 

Obedience is our business, while the result of obedience is God's business. He will give us grace and understanding as we go through with what He wants. We must be open, willing vessels though. Writing helps my heart to quiet and that is what we all need sometimes. A quiet heart. 

Peace. 

Knowing that no matter what happens, there is not one thing that God will allow to happen or not to happen that won't be in His perfect plan. This may come in forms not so pleasant, but remember His promise to never Leave or Forsake you!! Rest in that and empty your mind of it's worries. 

I needed to organize my thoughts and ask for prayer here, while this time of waiting extends for me. Brother's and Sister's, please pray that I will be sensitive to the Spirit and also to the Will of God. 

My Voyage

One

More

Year

Until the doors open

More school or taken across the seas,

Of endless possibilities.

Haiti, the place where I left my heart

Do I go back now and retrieve it?

Or do I simply follow it and

Learn to swim.

“Do you not need an anchor,” They ask.

My answer,

If I don’t try to rescue the least of these

I have already let go of the lifeboat and drowned.

You look at me and wonder why I choose this,

Why not go back to school

And climb this ladder

Of social acceptance.

Because my voyage is different than yours. 

Seek your voyage and climb that ship. 

~Anna Giesbrecht